STILL NOT SLEEPING
I'm having a hell of a time sleeping still. I never used to wake up in the middle of the night. Now I get exhausted around 8 pm and lie down to sleep. But a few hours later I'm awake, lying in bed, and can't get back to sleep. So begins a round of sleeping and waking. I can sometimes get some work done when I'm awake in the middle of the night but I don't really have the energy for it and I suspect it doesn't help me get to sleep. I get wired when I write.
I'm struggling with my own episode. It's always easier to rewrite than to write, even if you're throwing out the earlier version of the scene entirely. At least there's not the hostility of the blank page. You know where not to go with the scene. A part of you is there saying, not that way, this way. But with the blank page, you have to figure out how to get into the scene. Getting into the scene is the hardest, I think. I think I spend half the time trying to figure out how to get into a scene, and the other half actually writing it.